It's been a rough day.

When I finally decided to start a blog, I wanted to blog about happy, fun stuff, but this week hasn't been that way. I had my tubes tied today. That is all that was supposed to happen in the beginning, but ended up having to have a diagnostic D&C and a biopsy done on a suspicious area. I wasn't sure if I wanted to share this with the world, but I just want to get my feelings out, and what better way, right?!? I was very apprehensive and nervous about having all this done. Just knowing that now I won't be able to have anymore children, makes me sad. I don't want anymore, but it's still sad. And obviously when they woke me up after the procedure, it must have hit me, because David said I woke up bawling and they had to give me more medicine to calm me down. I am okay with it all now. Now, I just hope the biopsy comes back negative, which I am sure it will. One of my incisions is through the belly button and it hurts pretty bad right now. My husband has been absolutely amazing at taking care of me. I also have the best friends and Mother a girl could ask for, and I am so thankful for them. On a sad note, Sammy, my stepdad, called me Tuesday night and told me PawPaw wasn't doing well, and they didn't expect him to live much longer. He died today around 2:00 pm. He is going to be missed tremendously by all who had the pleasure of knowing him. I became a part of their family when I was 18 years old, and they took me in as though I had always been in their family. He lived an amazing life and I admire him with all my heart. I have been attending church regularly again, and it has been one of the best things I could have done. I can now understand the phrase "Giving it to God." - through all the turmoil of the last few weeks, I can appreciate and confidently say I am giving it to God. I am truly blessed.